SEVENTH READING

I Cultivate a White Rose
By Jose Marti

I cultivate a white rose
In July as in January
For the sincere friend
Who gives me his hand frankly.

And for the cruel person who tears out
the heart with which I live,
I cultivate neither nettles nor thorns:
I cultivate a white rose.

I enjoy this poem because I think this is what we all strive to be! We strive to be the best we can be to everyone even those who sometimes make life more difficult. The color white represent purity and the rose represents beauty. We must be willing to turn the other cheek when we are done wrong to and try to see beauty even in those who seem to lack it. Marti does not put it this nice but his symbolism are enough to express an anti-revenge attitude. 

Another Great Poem By Jose Marti 

A Sincere Man Am I (Verse I) By Jose Marti 

A sincere man am I
From the land where palm trees grow,
And I want before I die
My soul's verses to bestow.

I'm a traveller to all parts,
And a newcomer to none:
I am art among the arts,
With the mountains I am one.

I know how to name and class
All the strange flowers that grow;
I know every blade of grass,
Fatal lie and sublime woe.

I have seen through dead of night
Upon my head softly fall,
Rays formed of the purest light
From beauty celestial.

I have seen wings that were surging
From beautiful women's shoulders,
And seen butterflies emerging
From the refuse heap that moulders.

I have known a man to live
With a dagger at his side, 
And never once the name give
Of she by whose hand he died.

Twice, for an instant, did I
My soul's reflection espy:
Twice: when my poor father died
And when she bade me good-bye.

I trembled once, when I flung
The vineyard gate, and to my dread,
The wicked hornet had stung
My little girl on the forehead.

I rejoiced once and felt lucky
The day that my jailer came
To read the death warrant to me
That bore his tears and my name.

I hear a sigh across the earth,
I hear a sigh over the deep:
It is no sign reaching my hearth,
But my son waking from sleep.

If they say I have obtained
The pick of the jeweller's trove,
A good friend is what I've gained
And I have put aside love.

I have seen across the skies
A wounded eagle still flying;
I know the cubby where lies
The snake of its venom dying.

I know that the world is weak
And must soon fall to the ground,
Then the gentle brook will speak
Above the quiet profound.

While trembling with joy and dread,
I have touched with hand so bold
A once-bright star that fell dead
From heaven at my threshold.

On my brave heart is engraved
The sorrow hidden from all eyes:
The son of a land enslaved,
Lives for it, suffers and dies.

All is beautiful and right,
All is as music and reason;
And all, like diamonds, is light
That was coal before its season.

I know when fools are laid to rest
Honor and tears will abound,
And that of all fruits, the best
Is left to rot in holy ground.

Without a word, the pompous muse
I've set aside, and understood:
From a withered branch, I choose
To hang my doctoral hood.

This poem really enhance Cuba. It has Cuba written all over it (where palm trees grow...) He talks about his own experiences, after all these 

are his verses. There is so much detail yet so much you have to pick outand detect from this poem. It is very difficult to understand every 

detail, rather than as a whole. It is worth depicting and very well 

written. 

Notes from SJSU Panel on "Fresh Fruit, Broken Bodies"

The Department Of Justice Studies at SJSU Hosted The Ann Lucas In Law & Justice Featuring A Debate On The Book "Fresh Fruit, Broken Bodies: Migrant Farm Workers In The United States" By Seth M. Holmes. It took place on April 23rd and I was fortunate to be able to attend. Here are some notes!

Seth M. Holmes

• Anthropologist
• Author of "Fresh Fruit, Broken Bodies"
• PHD from Berkeley 
• Director of Public Health @ Berkeley
• Physician

On The Panel

• Kitty Calavita (UC Irvine)
• Maria Echaveste (Stanford, Berkeley)

How The Book Came To Be

• From Seth's own curiosity & interest
• wanted to know about relationship between U.S & Mexico
• The way we get our food and where it comes from 
• Indigenous people

The Experience (brief)

• Seth worked picking berries and strawberries twice a week
• other days interviewed nurses/doctors about campesino's health
• lived w/ Triqui ppl (19 of them) in a small shack apartment
• he lived in the closet
• lives in oaxaca for a while
• crossed the desert border and was detained and fined by border patrol
• took 7 yrs to write the book
• visits Triqui ppl almost every yr.

Tonaca Farm

• Jap/American workers
• Aglo American owners?
• $7.16/hr in Washington ST.

3 Types Of Labor Camps

1. 50 ppl 

• no insolation
• derogative terms like "perro"(dog), "Indio estupido" (stupid indian/indigenous), "burro" (donkey), and "Oaxaca"(from Oaxacan descent) are used by the owners to call or describe their employees.
• no heating ??

      2. ??

      3. 250 ppl 

• no insolation
• pickers do not take breaks for fear that they might not make the weight of fruit they need to pick
• the more fruit the more money

Racism

• Mizteco ppl earn more money than Triqui ppl
• Triqui ppl are categorized by others as the "most dumb indigenous"

Migrant Health

• Clinics are usually unfunded 
• most migrants do not have health insurance
• by age 30, 40s and 50s the campesino is worn-out b/c of harsh labor 

Book recommendation

• The Birth Of The Clinic

• look up symbolic violence

Maria Echaveste:

• Why is is that ppl believe that others are more well suited to pick strawberries? Why categorize people? 
• Agriculture has always been an exploited industry

Recommended Documentary

• "Harvest Of Shame"

Some Resources

Took these notes in the student union at SJSU on friday :)

Bureau Of Labor Statistics
http://www.bls.gov/news.release/pdf/forbrn.pdf

2012:

• Hispanics accounted for 48.3% of foreign-born labor.
• Asians accounted for 23.7%
• Median usual weekly earnings full-time: $625 (Foreign), $725 (native born)

National Center For Farm worker Health

http://www.ncfh.org/docs/fs-facts%20about%20farmworkers.pdf

• 72% farm workers were foreign born

Huff Post: Latino Politics

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/01/15/12-disturbing-facts-about-farm-labor-conditions_n_2479452.html

Migrant Worker Stories
http://www.cdmigrante.org/wp-content/uploads/2013/09/Workers-Stories-Cien-Cenas-2013.pdf

*I plan on using these websites and more throughout my research for my masterpiece

A Guide To My Masterpiece: The Social Injustice Of The Campesino

I actually made a powerpoint but have no idea how to even attach it to this so here it is....

A Guide Through My Masterpiece: The Social Injustice Of The Campesino

My Interest, My passion 

• Agriculture is a huge part of my community
•  My father and family members are or once were victims of the injustice of the field work.
•  I want to make people aware of the conditions of these hard working Campesinos.

Interviews: "Viewing It Through Their Eyes"

I have already began interviewing students whose parents work as Campesinos. My job now is to interview actual Campesinos and ask them about their treatment and labor. This will serve as a vital part to my masterpiece.    

My Resources

• Motorcycle Diaries by Che Guevara
• Activist Cesar Chavez 
• United Farm Workers Cite
• Mrs. Byrne
• Mr. Jauregui
• Mrs. Villalbos
• Mr. Valencia 
• Ana Marquez- Examining the health of laborers
• Fresh Fruit, Broken Bodies by Seth M. Holmes
• Bureau Of Labor Statistics
• National Center For Farm worker Health
• HuffPost: Latino Politics
• Maria Echaveste
• Notes from SJSU Justice Studies "Ann Lucas Lecture in Law & Justice" on Fresh Fruit, Broken Bodies by Seth M. Holmes

EXTRAS

• Talk about the Campesino and their family’s Health
• Facts about their health and uncared for it is
• Inhumane condition facts
• Quotes and thoughts on labor 
• How we can help

SJSU Student On Fire...

Last night I was woken up at about 11:30 by my sister. As I woke up lazily and slowly my sister urged me to get out of the building with her. I heard loud screams and a lot of commotion. My first expression was "these students are having a party." The first words that came out of my mind were "they are exaggerating" ...When I look at the building caught up in flames and deteriorating fast I knew that there was no exaggeration in the screams and cries from the burned student and the residents of the apartments. My sister and I went down and witnessed the firefighters prepare to put out the fire. We witnessed students confused and frightened faces. We witnessed the angry manager making calls and going up and down the stairs. We witnessed the burned student being taken away to safety. The sight was very frightened but I am glad that the student made it to safety and that there were no deaths.

Student suffers burn injuries in apartment fire near San Jose State
Article by San Jose Mercury News HERE: http://www.mercurynews.com/bay-area-news/ci_25628214/student-suffers-burn-injuries-apartment-fire-near-san

SAN JOSE -- A college student was burned while escaping from an apartment fire near San Jose State University, according to a fire captain.

The fire broke out at At 11:30 p.m. Wednesday in a third-floor apartment at a complex at 467 8th St., located one block away from San Jose State University, San Jose fire Capt. Fernando Munoz said.

Two college-aged students were home when the blaze ignited, Munoz said.

One male student was asleep in his room when his male roommate, who was talking on the phone with his sister, lit a candle and placed the match on a couch, Munoz said. The roommate then walked outside and continued his phone conversation near the third-story railing.

After about 10 minutes, the roommate noticed smoke pouring out of the apartment's front door, Munoz said.The roommate called the student who was sleeping in a bedroom and told him to get out. The student walked through the living room and out the front door and received second-degree burns in the process, Munoz said. "The fire was going pretty good when he walked through," Munoz said. The student was taken to Valley Medical Center to be treated for his injuries. The roommate also knocked on doors of surrounding apartments to get other people out. The entire complex was evacuated, Munoz said. Firefighters believe the match landing on a couch likely sparked the blaze. The unit was a total loss and two apartments underneath it sustained water damage, Munoz said. 

NEWS VIDEOS ON INCIDENT: http://www.mercurynews.com/bay-area-news/ci_25628214/student-suffers-burn-injuries-apartment-fire-near-san

NO HUMAN BEING IS ILLEGAL

"No human being is illegal. ‘Foreign nationals,’ ‘undocumented immigrants,’ ‘immigrants without papers’ and ‘immigrants seeking status’ are examples of terms we can use that do not dehumanize people." 

I am so very glad to hear that the phrase "Illegal Immigrant" has been banned from UCLA and UC Berkeley. To be honest that term offends me. It sends chills through my body and sets rage in my heart. Banning the word does not mean that it will completely become extinct, but it is a good start. I am not undocumented, but I am a human being. Though born and raised in California I am a resident of the world. I do not see why people need to be labeled and dehumanized by such derogative terms. Latinos are humans too. Oh and by the way there is more to immigrants than just Latinos! There is no illegal people in this world and there may be aliens but please do not confuse yourself and mistake  immigrants with the extraterrestrial race! There is a big difference!

‘Illegal Immigrant’ Term Banned At UCLA and UC Berkeley

‘Illegal Immigrant’ Term Banned At UCLA and UC Berkeley

ORIGINAL ARTICLE: http://www.nnirr.org/~nnirrorg/drupal/node/589

Following the footsteps of University of California Los Angeles (UCLA), the student government at the UC Berkeley has also banned the use of the term 'illegal immigrant,' in academic writing or in communications between faculty, students and staff. The government labeled the term as racially derogatory, offensive and unfair.

Berkeley's student government voted 18-0 on Oct.30 in favor of the ban saying the word 'illegal' is 'racially charge' and 'dehumanizes people' and leads to 'punitive and discriminatory actions aimed primarily at immigrants and communities of color,' the College Fix reports. Only Sen. Solomon Nwoche abstained from voting.

"No human being is illegal," the resolution states. " 'Foreign nationals,' 'undocumented immigrants,' 'immigrants without papers' and 'immigrants seeking status' are examples of terms we can use that do not dehumanize people."

Student Sen. Sean Tan told College Fix that banning the world will help reduce the negative psychological harm caused by the term on undocumented students. Another student Sen. Wendy Pacheco said that the resolution is aimed at changing perception about their 'fellow human beings.'

The university becomes the second California school to ban 'illegal immigrant' this year after the undergraduate student government at UCLA passed a similar resolution over the summer, urging student journalists and campus organizations to refrain from using the term.

The resolution was introduced after undocumented UCLA students expressed 'their concerns and fear' with the recent appointment of Janet Napolitano, former US Secretary of Homeland Security, as the new president of the University of California system. 

During her tenure at the Department of Homeland security (2009-2103), Napolitano set new records in deportations of undocumented immigrants. The department deported more than 779,000 illegal immigrants in 2009 and 2010, a 10 percent increase from 2008. In fiscal year 2012, immigration agents deported more than 400,000 undocumented immigrants, Think Progress reports.

UC officials stated that around 900 undocumented students, out of approximately 234,000 students, attend the University of California public school system.  Undocumented students can apply at any college or university in California as long as they meet admissions requirements. The AB 540 program allows undocumented students who meet specific criteria to pay in-state tuition

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Macbeth Presentation

Prezi link:
http://prezi.com/ypf6gv_3pwcf/macbeth-review/

Group Members:
Izamar Diaz
Maria Luna 
and Myself :)

Can't wait to meet Sammy!

My next prey...well kinda.

Original Article: http://www.ucpress.edu/book.php?isbn=9780520275140 (Click on the link and read the first chapter/excerpt)

Fresh Fruit, Broken Bodies

Migrant Farmworkers in the United States, With a Foreword by Philippe Bourgois

Seth Holmes (Author)

Available worldwide

California Series in Public Anthropology

DESCRIPTION:

This book is an ethnographic witness to the everyday lives and suffering of Mexican migrants. Based on five years of research in the field (including berry-picking and traveling with migrants back and forth from Oaxaca up the West Coast), Holmes, an anthropologist and MD in the mold of Paul Farmer and Didier Fassin, uncovers how market forces, anti-immigrant sentiment, and racism undermine health and health care. Holmes’ material is visceral and powerful—for instance, he trekked with his informants illegally through the desert border into Arizona, where they were apprehended and jailed by the Border Patrol. After he was released from jail (and his companions were deported back to Mexico), Holmes interviewed Border Patrol agents, local residents, and armed vigilantes in the borderlands. He lived with indigenous Mexican families in the mountains of Oaxaca and in farm labor camps in the United States, planted and harvested corn, picked strawberries, accompanied sick workers to clinics and hospitals, participated in healing rituals, and mourned at funerals for friends. The result is a "thick description" that conveys the full measure of struggle, suffering, and resilience of these farmworkers.

Fresh Fruit, Broken Bodies weds the theoretical analysis of the anthropologist with the intimacy of the journalist to provide a compelling examination of structural and symbolic violence, medicalization, and the clinical gaze as they affect the experiences and perceptions of a vertical slice of indigenous Mexican migrant farmworkers, farm owners, doctors, and nurses. This reflexive, embodied anthropology deepens our theoretical understanding of the ways in which socially structured suffering comes to be perceived as normal and natural in society and in health care, especially through imputations of ethnic body difference. In the vehement debates on immigration reform and health reform, this book provides the necessary stories of real people and insights into our food system and health care system for us to move forward to fair policies and solutions.

CONTENT:

Foreword, by Philippe Bourgois

Acknowledgments

1. Introduction: “Worth Risking Your Life?”

2. “We Are Field Workers”: Embodied Anthropology of Migration

3. Segregation on the Farm: Ethnic Hierarchies at Work

4. “How the Poor Suffer”: Embodying the Violence Continuum

5. “Doctors Don’t Know Anything”: The Clinical Gaze in Migrant Health

6. “Because They’re Lower to the Ground”: Naturalizing Social Suffering

7. Conclusion: Change, Pragmatic Solidarity, and Beyond

Appendix: On Methods and Contextual Knowledge

Notes

References

Index

Author's Bio:

Seth M. Holmes is an anthropologist and physician. He received his PhD in Medical Anthropology from the University of California, Berkeley and San Francisco, and his M.D. from the University of California, San Francisco. He is Martin Sisters Endowed Chair Assistant Professor of Public Health and Medical Anthropology at the University of California, Berkeley. 

Philippe Bourgois is Richard Perry University Professor of Anthropology and Family & Community Medicine at the University of Pennsylvania and author, among other books of In Search of Respect (Cambridge, 2000) and Righteous Dopefiend (UC Press, 2010).

Reviews: More on the website: http://www.ucpress.edu/book.php?isbn=9780520275140

"By giving voice to silenced Mexican migrant laborers, Dr. Holmes exposes the links among suffering, the inequalities related to the structural violence of global trade which compel migration, and the symbolic violence of stereotypes and prejudices that normalize racism."—Marilyn Gates New York Journal of Books

"The reader is left with a deep understanding of how injustice in the United States is produced and the strength of the individuals that persevere through it."—Laura-Anne Minkoff-Zern Antipode

"Holmes brings an unusual expertise to his writing about migrant Mexican farmworkers. . . . [He] goes far beyond mere observation."—Charles Ealy Austin American Statesman

"The insights gleaned by [Holmes's] participation-observation are priceless."—Michelle A. Gonzalez National Catholic Reporter

"Fresh Fruit, Broken Bodies is an absolute must-read for anyone interested in food and the food system. . . . To say that the book provides a vivid look at farm labor is an understatement."—Peter Benson Somatosphere

"A compelling and frightening account of the lives of [Mexican migrant] workers. . . . [Holmes's] tales of crossing the border, doing backbreaking work in the fields, and exploring relationships with these dislocated and largely invisible workers is well worth a read."—Leah Douglas Serious Eats

"A provocative, important new book. . . . Part heart-pounding adventure tale, part deep ethnograhic study, part urgent plea for reform. . . . Holmes brings an enlightening complexity to the issue of migrant workers."—Mark B. San Francisco Bay Guardian

"A provocative, important new book. . . . Part heart-pounding adventure tale, part deep ethnographic study, part urgent plea for reform."—Marke B. Bay Guardian

Why Picking Your Berries For $8,000 A Year Hurts A Lot

Original Article here: http://www.npr.org/blogs/thesalt/2013/08/07/209925420/why-picking-your-berries-for-8-000-a-year-hurts-a-lot

As the supply chain that delivers our food to us gets longer and more complicated, many consumers want to understand — and control — where their food comes from.

But even if we meet farmers at the farmers market, urban consumers are still largely divorced from the people who grow, pick and package our food. And we may even willfully ignore their suffering, argues Seth Holmes, a medical anthropologist and professor of health and social behavior at the University of California, Berkeley, in his provocative new book, Fresh Fruit, Broken Bodies.

For two summers between 2003 and 2005, Holmes lived on a farm in the Skagit Valley of Washington state. The farm produces strawberries, apples, raspberries and blueberries to sell to berry companies like Driscoll and dairy companies like Häagen-Dazs. He traveled there with a group of Triqui Indians, across the border from their hometown of San Miguel in Oaxaca, Mexico. As Holmes soon learned, the Triquis make up the very bottom rung of the agricultural labor ladder and earn between $5,000 to $8,000 a year.

Holmes stayed in the camp with the other laborers, in a shack with a tin roof and no insulation. Over the winter, he traveled with the Triquis to Madera, Calif., to prune grapevines in a vineyard. In 2005, Holmes went back to medical school, but he has continued to visit the same workers nearly every year since.

On the berry farm, Holmes picked fruit once or twice a week; the Triqui workers picked seven days a week, rain or shine, without a day off. And that took a heavy toll on their bodies: back and knee pain, slipped disks, Type 2 diabetes, premature births. As one Triqui worker he calls Abelino told him, "You pick with your hands bent over kneeling, your back hurts; you get knee pains and [hip] pains ... You suffer a lot."

We talked to Holmes about his time with the Triquis; here's part of our conversation, edited for brevity and clarity.

What was the most surprising or shocking aspect of the food system that you uncovered in your research?

"Before I did the research, I had a sense of the hierarchy of people involved in the food labor chain. But over the course of the first five months, it became clear that the hierarchy is much more detailed and subtle. There are indigenous Mexicans [like the Triqui] who occupy the rung with the most demanding physical labor — they're the ones who are bent over picking. The mestizos operate the machines — that's not quite as demanding. Then the U.S.-born Latinos are in charge of some things, and use English and Spanish. The white Americans have the most control.

"What was troubling was that people on every rung of hierarchy are legitimizing and justifying it. Farmworkers are doing that, too."

Do you think that hierarchy is representative of farms in other states in the U.S.?

"I think it is. The indigenous people from Mexico and Central America have the least powerful position. The system is different in California, because farms tend to hire a contractor to get big fields picked or pruned. The contractor goes out and finds laborers, and in my field research, I found that system to be worse in the sense that farmworkers are not paid directly by the farm. There's no paper trail. When we were in California, every time we pruned, we were paid less than minimum wage. With that system, labor laws are less likely to be enforced. But in Washington state, the farmworkers were hired directly by farmers, who were more likely to pay minimum wage."

Do you think that the American public cares about the labor required to produce our food?

"We talk so little about the people who do the work that gives us the fresh fruit and vegetables that we want. Farmworkers are pretty hidden, and there's a concept from Jean-Paul Sartre, the French philosopher, called bad faith, meaning self-deception. My simplified version of that is that we consciously hide from ourselves the difficult realities of the workers. We somewhat know them, but we don't think about them much. In that way it seems like 'communal bad faith.' "

Why do you think the people in the food movement calling for changes in the industrial food system don't talk much about the labor issues?

"On some level, a lot of the food movement is concerned with: How does this food affect me and my body? Are there hormones in it? Antibiotics? Pesticides? But the workers who are harvesting the food and spraying the pesticides — their bodies are human, too. Ideally, we would think about them and what's going into that work. If there are ways that we, as consumers, can lend a voice towards farmworkers having health care that will protect the bodies that are working so hard to give us the healthy food we can eat, I think that's really important."

So you think the health care available to farmworkers is deficient?

"In Washington state and California, the people I met were pretty lucky to have independently run, grant-funded, nonprofit clinics to go to. But it's unclear what will happen with the Affordable Care Act. The law is wonderful in lots of ways, and will increase access for a lot of people, but there are no provisions for immigrants. Meanwhile, immigration reform is stalled, and it looks like part of the reason is that several representatives won't vote for reform unless newly legalized immigrants will not be eligible for full health care. But the people who are getting sick to help us get a healthy diet deserve health care."

It's clear from the book that you don't really blame the farm owners for the poor living and working conditions of berry pickers. As you write, "The corporatization of U.S. agriculture and the growth of international free markets squeeze growers such that they cannot easily imagine increasing the pay of the pickers or improving the labor camps without bankrupting the farm ... many of the most powerful inputs into the suffering of farmworkers are structural, not willed by individuals."

"Sometimes it is fair for us to blame farm owners. But sometimes it isn't. We also have to look at the North American Free Trade Agreement, and other free trade agreements. In general, the problems in agriculture are long-standing."

What do you think is the most important thing for consumers to know about the people behind their food?

"Farmworkers help us be healthy by harvesting fruits and vegetables, and they're helping the health of our economy by paying sales taxes and Social Security. But we are not prone to value their health or bodies or well-being. That seems disrespectful and unfair."

Macbeth Act 5 Notes

Scene 1: 

• Gentlewomen explaining to Doctor that Lady Macbeth sleep walks
• Lady Macbeth always has a candle near her bed side
• rubs her hands as if she were to wash them...

-her hands are stained with evil

• Lady Macbeth speaks of old man and blood (who?)
• her hands will never be clean
• Speaks of Banquo and how he is now dead and buries and can't possibly come out of his tomb
• "What's done cannot be undone" 

DOCTOR
Foul whisp'rings are abroad. Unnatural deeds
Do breed unnatural troubles. Infected minds
To their deaf pillows will discharge their secrets.
More needs she the divine than the physician.
God, God forgive us all! Look after her,
Remove from her the means of all annoyance,
And still keep eyes upon her. So, good night.
My mind she has mated, and amazed my sight.
I think, but dare not speak.

Scene 2: 

• English Army is near
• Rumor has it Macbeth has gone mad and is guarding his castle

Scene 3: 

• Malcom=medicine of sick country 
• Macbeth believe in the witches prophecies “Fear not, Macbeth. No man that’s born of woman Shall e'er have power upon thee.” Then fly, false thanes,
• The attack on Macbeth is confirmed
• Macbeth wears his armor
• Asks Doctor to cure wife and country

Scene 4:

• Soldiers get prepared to fight
• grab branch from forest and hold it up to try to trick Macbeth
• pep talking each other 

Scene 5: 

• The army is approaching
• Macbeth says to many horrible things have happened to him that he is no longer afraid of horrible things
• Lady macbeth is dead
• tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow
• Moving forest=english army

"If thou speak’st false,

Upon the next tree shall thou hang alive

Till famine cling thee. If thy speech be sooth,

I care not if thou dost for me as much.

I pull in resolution and begin"

Scene 6:

• Malcom, Siward, MacDuff 
• ready for battle
• putting the branches down and showing who they are

Scene 7: 

• "What’s he That was not born of woman? Such a one Am I to fear, or none."
• Macbeth and young Siward face to face
• young Siward is killed 

Scene 8:

• Macbeth rather see others die than himself
• MacDuff and Macbeth fight 
• insult each other
• MacDuff says he was not born from a women/ c-section?
• Macbeth is afraid to fight 
• Ross breaks the new to Siward that young Siward is dead
• MacDuff carries in Macbeth's head

"...As calling home our exiled friends abroad

That fled the snares of watchful tyranny,

Producing forth the cruel ministers

Of this dead butcher and his fiendlike queen,

Who, as ’tis thought, by self and violent hands

Took off her life; this, and what needful else

That calls upon us, by the grace of Grace"

I wish I did it for the growth not for the grade

I am tired and burnt out. My motivation to finish the school year with good grades or at least descent grades are not for some paper called a diploma that somehow validates who I am. My motivation is my provisional acceptance to San Jose state.

You know how I know that I am burnt...I am playing the game. I am playing the system. I am not learning I am passing by. I study, I work hard, I am a great student, but I have lost the love for school. Actually I am not sure if I ever liked it, far less ever loved it. The first emotion that comes with the word school for me is STRESS and HATE. I realize that education is valuable and I am so very lucky to have one in America. I also realize that school has taught me to accommodate to situations. If I have to pass a test or class I have to study for it. Basically what that means is cram all you can the day before...after the test forget everything! I am tired of being labeled as "smart" because I have a high percentage in a class. I hate schooling! It has taught me to LEARN FOR THE MOMENT but NOT FOR A LIFETIME. I am programmed to get stuff done for a grade. I am encouraged to follow the rules, and not to question the system.

I love learning...actually learning. Educating myself and others because we want to...NOT FOR A GRADE BUT FOR GROWTH!

I am burnt and now you know why.

Macbeth Act 4 notes

Paper notes...classy. I know.

 

In the Spirit of MUST

 Today I went to Avila Beach with my siblings and a family friend. I decided to try something new...boogie boarding (I think that is what it is called). I have never in my life put on a wetsuit much less gone in the ocean with it. Though I was scared as hell...today was a neat experience. Once I became a little comfortable with the waves I got over some of my fear. The key learning experience here is that nothing becomes normal or comfortable until you try it! 

            

                                         

I'll try to upload a video of the experience...

THE CROSSROADS BETWEEN SHOULD AND MUST

Where are you in relation to the crossroads, and which way do you see yourself headed? 

• Should is how others want us to show up in the world — how we’re supposed to think, what we ought to say, what we should or shouldn’t do. It’s the vast array of expectations that others layer upon us. When we choose Should the journey is smooth, the risk is small.
• Must is different—there aren’t options and we don’t have a choice.

       I have been living a life of should for seventeen years! There have definitely been some gleams of must, but not enough to convert my life to it. All of my life has been fulfilling expectations for others and for myself. These expectations are things that I should do in order to some day do what I must do.

      In relation to these two roads I am on the edge of the cliff looking down and trying to figure out how I could safely get down to the must platform. The really confusing thing to me is what the hell awaits me in this must platform? 

       I have been doing what I should for so long that I have been blinded from what I must do. I do not plan to be a should person for the rest of my life, but I do plan to be one until I figure out how my should relates to my must, or if they even relate at all. I have faith that the dots will connect and that my calling will come when it is meant to come. However that does not mean that I will be doing what others expect of me all the time. I am consciously aware that I like working and helping people. I am also aware that what I plan to pursue in my life/career is not going to make me some sort of millionaire and famous person. That does not disturb me. What really bothers me is that my should wants me to be that. my should wants me to make money...I am not my should. The people around me are my should.

I have not found all of my must but I am headed there. I want my career to represent who I am and my life in general. I want my must to be my career and my career to be my must. I leave this duty to my awareness and to time for they both know when and how I will find my calling. 

Reading Notes Macbeth ACT 3

Act 3 Scene 1:

• Banquo giving credit to the witches about their prophecies
• Macbeth is king
• Macbeth insist that Banquo be at the feast....hmm? foreshadowing? 
• Macbeth fears Banquo b/c he is an honest man
• Macbeth will kill Banquo's sons
• Macbeth brainwashes the murder to think everything was Banquo's fault
• Macbeth goes into comparison of men and dogs, which ones are slow and fast etc 
• Macbeth wants Banquo and Fleance dead and plans his death with the 2 murders

Scene 2: 

• dialogue between Macbeth and Lady Macbeth
• speaking of Banquo 
• Macbeth is a bit paranoid and acting afraid like a coward

Scene 3:

• Murder scene of Banquo and escape of Fleance 
• Cut of Banquo's head 
• Macbeth can't shake terrible/murderous images out of his head but has to act normal
• Things bad begun make strong themselves ill

Scene 4: 

• At the feast 
• The murders enter and tell Macbeth what has occurred
• Lady Macbeth taking charge at the feast....taking Macbeth's masculinity
• Macbeth sees the ghost of Banquo 
• He sits in Macbeth's seat
• Attendants of feast do not know Banquo is dead...assumed he missed the feast for some pther reason
• Macbeth talking to the ghost
• Ghost vanishes
• The guest leave the feast and Macbeth is beyong paranoid and abnormal and obvious as can be
• Macbeth and Lady Macbeth sleep

Scene 5: 

• Witch and Hecate dialogue 
• Hecate disturbed b/c witches did not say anything about telling Macbeth his prophecies
• Hecate plans to trick Macbeth with more illusions
• And you all know, security is mortals' chiefest enemy

Scene 6:

• Dialogue between Lennox and Lord
• Not sure about Macbeth and want help from outside source/powers

Reading Notes Macbeth Act 2

Scene 1:

• Banquo and Fleance up at night. Unable to fall asleep.
• Macbeth enters
• Banquo tells him that the Duncan is sleeping and has brought many presents with him
• Macbeth and Banquo have a conversation about the witches' prophecies and how they are on point with what is happening.
• Shortly after Macbeth is contemplating weather to kill Duncan or not: being dramatic, comparison to Hamlet's soliloquy...
• He finally decides he is going to kill him... "Duncan for it is a knell That summons thee to heaven or to hell."

Scene 2:

• Lady Macbeth got  servants very drunk 
• Macbeth kills Duncan in his sleep
• Lady Macbeth says she would have killed him herself if he did not remind him of her father while he slept.
• Macbeth is feeling sorry/guilty about what he did. He stares at his hands and describes the murder as a sorry sight.
• Lady macbeth gets bothered by this commentary and brushes it away.
•   Macbeth starts getting very guilty and starts speaking non sense about never being able to sleep. 
• Lady Macbeth insults him calls him a coward and gives him the instructions on what to do with his bloody hands. 
• Lady Macbeth is determined to do what Macbeth is not. 
• Macbeth is getting paranoid with every noise.

Scene 3:

• Drunk porter knocks on the door
• He starts saying who could potentially be on the other side knocking: a farmer, English tailor, etc
• Macduff and Porter have a conversation about what drinking does to you.
• Lennox and Macduff greet Macbeth
• Macbeth tells them the king is arranged to leave
• Lennox w/o knowing about  Duncan death...there was death in the air last night, cry in the air etc
• Macduff breaks the news to Macbeth and Lennox that Duncan is dead
• Lady Macbeth joins the fun just in time to appear innocent
• Banquo is shocked about the death
• Malcom & Donalbain enter and Macbeth breaks the news to them
• Macbeth tuns himself in by saying he killed him??
• Malcom & Donalbain decide to grive later but leave right away
• Lady Macbeth makes a scene and is taken away 
• A meeting will take place in the hall
• Malcom headed to England
• Donalbain headed to Ireland
• They have both figured out that there is no mercy for their loss and everything is fake and they would rather be away from danger and drama

Scene 4:

• Old man and Ross speaking about the night of Duncan's death...dark and unlike any other
• Rumor has it that his horses went wild & ate each other
• Macduff & Ross speak of the death and servants

                -They believe someone paid the servants to kill Duncan

                - Suspect the sons of Duncan b/c they have fled

LOOK AT MY BRAIN

Describe how your masterpiece and/or work in general reflects your inner thinking and capability for creativity, critical thinking, and collaboration.

My inner thinking is a mixture of many thoughts and many feelings, but when it comes to speaking of injustice and inequality is goes a a spiral and intensive process. I get riled up about it and will not be able to stop talking about it. My masterpiece is about the social injustices the campesinos pass day-in and day-out. My masterpiece does not only reflect my inner thinking, but also my community. My masterpiece reflects my understanding of collaboration and connection with my community. It also reflects how collaboration in the fields can too be oppressed and go unnoticed to the ignorant. The creative thing about this masterpiece that I will not only portray some of the campesino's lifestyle to you in my masterpiece, but I will be a part of the labor as well. I plan to work in the fields for about 2-3 days to witness what the campesino's go through for that little amount of time. Of course my 2-3 days of labor will never sum up to their experiences because I do not do it day-in and day-out, and because I do not have a family to feed. There are a lot of factors that go into this masterpiece, but as to not give it away I will leave at this: You will never see campesinos (farm workers) the same way ever again. 

Let's be children again!

IF WE HAD THE CONFIDENCE OF A 2-6 YEAR OLD WE WOULD BE ABLE TO CONQUER THE WORLD!

Read this from my Child Development Class...it surprised me!

WHAT ABOUT MY MASTERPIECE?

My masterpiece has taken a slight turn...from compassion to "The Social Injustice Of The Campesinos." When I see something that is not just I get all riled up and angry inside. For years I have witnessed the unfairness of the labor and conditions of the Campesinos (farm workers). I am disgusted by the way they are exploited day-in and day-out. Just today on my ride home on the bus I saw about ten workers sitting on the dirt floor taking a break from the backbreaking work. ON THE FLOOR! This is one of many injustices that the campesinos have been put through. The pay sucks, the conditions are horrendous, and the threats that come if you do not conform are always kept on the down low. MY MASTERPIECE is going to be a short video that documents parts of the life of a campesino. Here is a picture of my  messy outline:

If I had all day to work on this masterpiece like Shakespeare had all day to work on his masterpiece work of literature I would be such a happy camper! I would most likely be able to film more footage, and spend more time discussing these problems with the campesinos. 

LOVE IS BLIND

Macbeth is submissive to Lady Macbeth and it is evident to the reader because he is always getting confronted by Lady Macbeth. Macbeth is a foil to Lady Macbeth. Though a violent character he seems as sweet as sugar when put aside of Lady Macbeth. We see Lady Macbeth as a heartless, wicked person. She is very self-centered and is not afraid to step on anyone to get to where she wants. Even at an early stage in the play we can tell she obsessed with power. Macbeth on the other hand sees his wife as someone he has to please. He sees her as an advisor someone he goes to, and talks about his decisions to. He is very much obedient to her. They are partners in crime and are very proud if that.

Reading Notes Macbeth Act 1