Beginning to Live

Wrote this poem last year.
Inspired by Rudyard Kipling's "If" poem.

Dedicated to all of us who think we really are living...

If you can bring yourself down

When you are high above

If you can pick yourself up

When everyone you trusted had the fault

If you can smile a real smile

When everything around makes you frown

If you can trust yourself

When everyone doubts you

If you can give respect

Without asking for any in return

If you can love yourself

With out seeing any beauty

If you can work hard

Without damaging your good mood

If you can keep yourself together

Without destroying  anyone or anything

If you can see hope

Where there is no light

If you can lend a hand

Where there is no help

If you can make others smile

When you smile

If you can love

When you have been neglected

If you can laugh where there is silence

If  you can find God

Where there is only darkness

And be able to walk

without having to drag your feet

then my love

is when you will begin to live.

For Food

I wrote this poem sometime last year.
It was inspired by a friend.

Dedicated to: All of the hard working people that do the impossible to have food in their hands for their families.



The glimpse of innocence
The eyes of truth
The bright Smile
Yet a childhood struggle

Why?
Why is it?
That a seven year old child
Has to work
That a six year old girl
And her four year old sister
Play instruments
And sing in the street
To gain
No
To earn money
To buy food
To eat

Necessity is becoming too common
The struggle is spreading further
But why?
Why?
To our children
Our Innocence
Our happiness

My ungrateful heart breaks
My knees go weak
And my selfish mind crumbles

Work is being instilled in them at such a young age
5,6,7,8
and here they are taking grown up task
caring their cross
and their crown

…to eat!
To taste! Eat! Fulfill!
Eat! Taste! Eat! Fulfill!
Taste!
For FOOD

Sucking the life out of me

How do you give hope when you are running out
and faith. What does that even mean?
What do you do when you yourself have doubt
I think you keep giving, but i'm just a teen

And when they turn to me
I look down for I have run out of words
there is nothing here to see
and that's when I approach the lord

How can I be the rock that others lean on?
How do I keep myself from  grumbling?

I search for the answers in the dark moon
but still I find the concept puzzling.


Today I ask you that you look at yourself and you ask yourself...How is my life? Do I like what I am doing? What can I do to make my life enjoyable? I find myself being very frustrated this week. Maybe it's finals week and the stress that comes with it or maybe i'm at the top of my limit. I enjoy helping others, but there are certain times when I feel like I give and all the person wants in return is more of my attention. I do not ask for anything in return, but I do wish to be given a break. I mean how do you give to someone who seems to drag you down with them, to someone who seems to suck the life out of you?

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Much appreciated.

LIFE AFTER THIS BLOG POST

Today I wrote myself an e-mail that I will receive on September 20th, 2014. During this time I will most likely be starting my first few day on a college campus. I will have mixed feeling about the whole situation for sure. In my letter I told myself that I have to keep working hard, believe in myself and remember to live day-in and day-out aware of the life I am going to be living.

These are things I have to constantly remind myself to do so I decided to remind myself then. By that time I hope I have a better grip on life than I do now. That sounds kind of bizarre. How do you get a better grip on life when it seems like it is flying by?

In this letter I am basically just motivating myself to live a good life and to take time for myself.
I want to live a fulfilling life and around this time (Sep. 20th, 2014) is when I will begin the journey to become a great human being.